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Perception - When I look at the Cross song

Current version on Indieheaven site is a demo produced by Uphill Studios with singing by someone other than Susan.

The King of Majesty,
Hangs in Agony.

He shall see [the fruit] of the travail of His soul and be satisfied, Isaiah 53:11.

Perception is not a snappy, happy worship song, it is more reflective, for deep thinking about the crucifixion. It would be best used in those reflective moments before communion.

I wonder what is was like to love Jesus and stand there helpless at the actual crucifixion and watch it, hear it, to be present there. When I put myself in that place, in my imagination and 'watch' it so to speak, there is a point where I want to turn my face away, as in, "really, I just can't watch this", and yet, I can't walk away and go home either. The song is an intermingling between what an observer at the cross, say Mary Magdalene was going through, or John, and the angst I feel when I "go there." What I have found personally is the more I get to know and love God the more emotional communion is for me. Perception took around a year to write and a whole lot of kleenex. This song is the fruit of the travail of my soul, as I stand at the cross.

The candle is a metaphor for Jesus, the Light of the World.
When I was in a clinical depression, I lit a candle and told the Lord, that flame is You, and I'm going to think of that every time I look at the candle. I kept that candle burning for what months and months. That was years ago, but even now, when things are diffi-cult for me, I'll light a candle and stare at the flame and think of Him. Always present, always here with me.

Timothy Keller in his book "Walking with God through Pain and suffering," masterfully pens these words:
"Those looking at Jesus as he was dying on the cross had no idea that they were look-ing at the greatest act of salvation in history. Could the observers of the crucifixion clearly perceive the ways of God? No, even though they were looking right at a wonder of grace. They saw only darkness and pain, and the categories of human reason are sure God cannot be working in and through that."

As present day Christians, we know the completion of the story in Matthew 28:1 6 (NASU Bible). "Now after the Sabbath, as it began to dawn toward the first day of the week, Mary Magdalene and the other Mary came to look at the grave. And behold, a severe earthquake had occurred, for an angel of the Lord descended from heaven and came and rolled away the stone and sat upon it. And his appearance was like lightning and his clothing as white as snow. The guards shook for fear of him and became like dead men. The angel said to the women, 'Do not be afraid; for I know that you are looking for Jesus who has been crucified. He is not here, for He has risen, just as He said.'"
In David Benners book "Opening to God" when he is discussing 'knowing God', he says about knowing God, "It might also involve using our imaginations to meet Jesus in the events of His life on earth and seeing ourselves, with our own personal history connected to those events."

I personally cannot think of any event in past history before I was born, that I was in-volved with other than the crucifixion.

In the church today, we run at high speed through the Bible. Personally I like to slow down, reflect, and meditate with scripture. I think the cross is a place for all of us to spend more time. Then the question then becomes, how do I respond to this love, the love of the cross.


posted by Susan on 06/09/2015