Building your Mega Tower Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

Recently I discovered in facebook that there is a page that is against the building of Mega Tower, a tower which I have no idea whether Malaysia is gonna build or not.

I asked some people about it and a lot are not happy with the thought. Some of my friends even joined the page to show their support against the tower.

Well, I'm building my own Mega Tower in my office with stack of coins =P hehe.. (Just that I have been collecting coins for no reasons. It looks bulky in my pants or wallet, so I decided to leave it in my office table)

Anyway, I thought about this tower because of the verse I read today.

Psalms 11
3 When the foundations are being destroyed,
what can the righteous do ?"

It was a question which led to another question:

- How is my foundation spiritually?
- Is it built on solid ground? on sand?
- Have I been building faithfully or has the construction stopped?
- Are my foundations corrupted? Destroyed?

In Dubai, I remember years ago working in DHL, I had to deliver a package at a location where today's tallest building in the world exist. There was no building on site yet but a huge hole in the middle present. In there, I kinda had a glimpse of the foundation they were building. The builders/architect knew the height of the tower and in order for it to stand tall and firm, the foundation needed to be right.

The further we grow in our career or ministry or even in our relationship with God, the stronger are foundation should be. Unlike the builders and architect who knew the final height of the tower, we have no clue to what God has in store for us. All we know is that His plans is to prosper us not to harm us, to give us hope and a future.

We need to be ready for such a promise. We need to be strong in our foundation to reach such promise.
We need to check if our foundation is stable. We need to evaluate, patch or strengthen our time and devotion.

posted by Neil 1a.m./Relent on 01/04/2011

LEGEND OF THE GUARDIANS: THE OWLS OF GA’HOOLE Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

I had 3 options

a) Legend of the fist by Donnie Yen (Acc. to Jude, DON'T GO FO IT!)

b) The Hole (Another Horror movie. Gf didn't wanna have a rough night so... left me with 3rd option)


Honestly, I had mixed feelings before watching the movie

One for instance was I thought it was gonna be a story of Harry Potters Owl, how he became Potters faithful Hotmail, Gmail delivery system.

Second, another "happy feet" story? Well, I liked the penguins but Owls don't dance =P

Third... forgive me for saying this but..... I thought it would be another girl movie =P. Well, BLAME it on the poster! It wasn't manly enough! =P Didn't have guns and grenades on the Owls hehe.

Anyway, the movie went beyond my expectation. I was glued to it from the start to the end.

The story begins with the introduction of an Owl family. Here we meet the protagonist of the movie, Soren, and his brother, Kludd, the antagonist to be.

Soren was a dreamer, who believed in the Legend of the Guardians, a mythical band of winged warriors, whereas Kludd was the opposite of him.

Kidnapped and forced to joined the pure-ones, Soren escapes only to find out that Kludd has decided to join the evil army.

The rest... I'll leave that to you and watch =P

What did I get from this movie?

1- The responsibility to lead

"Mend the broken, Make strong the weak and without hesitation... vanquish all evil" -Soren

This kinda reminded me about Isaiah 61:1

1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,

Soren the owl, had no skills, he didn't even know how to fly at first but that didn't stop him from fulfilling his quest to look for the guardians. He may not be the strongest owl in the movie but he was willing and God likes people like that. Willing people.

There is a battle in the real world we live in.. may not be "fantasy looking" but it's real. So whatcha gonna do about it?

2- Insecurity consequences

With Kludd, there was always the need to prove himself. He was jealous of Soren, who he feels gets the most attention and is just natural in whatever he does.

Banking in insecurities secretly paves another path that "according to us" seems right to take. We are blinded by comparing ourselves with others, crippling our chances to improve what we are good at. Even our character.

3) Importance of family

If you watched the movie, "the Echidna" who knows everything mentions how important it is for the group of owls(and snake) to stick to together in their journey as a family. One cannot function without the other, they would need each other to the end.

This reminds me of the passage in the bible were paul mentions in Romans:

4Just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, 5so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others.

We all need each other. We all have a role to play. We don't just sit to warm the seats of the church but we have a responsibility to build and advance the Kingdom of God.

A lot of us feel contended with where we are. Some of you may think that "Well I already sing or usher in church... that should be enough right?" Well... do ask yourself again and again that question "if that is enough"?

I cannot answer that question for you but regardless of the part you play in church, do it well and be fruitful.

Another thought from this point is the importance of our immediate family. Our mom, dad, siblings.
Our relationship in church maybe fantastic but our relationship at home isn't. We may treat the girl in church better than the sister you have at home, or treat your leaders with respect and your parents not at all.

Again, you might be saying "well Neil, you don't know how my family is... so &*#?!&!%$^&@!#... =P"

Well you're right... I do not know your family but I do know we are to be the salt and light not only to our friends but also to our immediate family. So what you doing about it?

My family have seen the light only because I chose to shine. My family have tasted that the Lord is good only because I chose to be salty for Him.

The support of those around you... close to you... is important.

Well, I believe that there are a lot of chicken soup thoughts that others have picked up by watching this movie. These are mine to share.

I was kinda pumped up about the call in my life and pictured myself in a warriors outfit ready to fight the good fight =P (That should give you an idea on how much I enjoyed the movie)

posted by Neil 1am/Relent on 11/02/2010

Irritated because of love Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

1 Cor 13:1-3

1 If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn't love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 23 If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it;but if I didn't love others, I would have gained nothing. If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God's secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn't love others, I would be nothing.

Read this verse from a devotional book this morning. At most times I would be heavily convicted but this time I was really, really irritated because I know the truth which is to Love... Love what? Love God? Think about it... How much do we really love Him?.... Aside from loving Him, we are told to love others! But do we really? In fact... loving God is to love others.

In the devotion book I read.. it says,

"In our Christian culture, we often tell people we will pray for them and then don't. We tell people who are going through crisis to call us if they need anything and then WE HOPE they don't need anything(ever). Paul calls that a 'resounding gong or a clanging cymbal,' in other words, not really music we can enjoy, just noise that's annoying."

Exactly a month from now is going to be Change Your World taking place on September 4, 2010 at Sunway Convention Center. Honestly, my heart is crushed on how churches and people respond to an event where there is nothing for us to gain(as organizers) but the satisfaction of seeing people becoming aware of the world that exist outside their own world and wanting to make a difference.

It's sad that most of us respond only when something bad happen to us personally and hope that others respond.

It's funny how most of us cares for the needs of people outside other nations when in fact there is a need screaming loud and clear in our very own nation. I'm not saying that it's wrong but if we are to respond to a need, lets not forget to respond to a need to places that is close with in our reach also.

I am tired of seeing people feeling sorry for other people. You know, the "Aww... poor thing" but not do anything about it. Why not respond by doing something about it? We can watch movies once or twice a week, eat food like KFC, Wendys, MC Donalds, TGIF but when its to feed the poor or the helpless, we're cashless.

It's so easy to laugh and joke about things that are useless or to an extent perverted even as Christians but when it comes to share about the gospel, or sharing a cause to a friend, we shrink back and hide... afraid of what people may think or say.

I hope I don't offend people in saying all this things... I don't really think this blog is strong enough for any insults. I am talking to myself as I write and reflect on this blog.

Am I being judgmental? Maybe I am... Maybe I am not. If I am, I'm sorry. It's just irritating that we as Christians respond so poorly in what matters the most. Matt 23:23 23 "What sorrow awaits you teachers of religious law and you Pharisees. Hypocrites! For you are careful to tithe even the tiniest income from your herb gardens,[a] but you ignore the more important aspects of the law-justice, mercy, and faith. You should tithe, yes, but do not neglect the more important things.

I'm gonna do my part in changing the world the best I can and I am going to trust God in doing the rest. Yes I'm fearful just like you who's reading this... but even more fearful if I don't doing anything about it.

Let Love Rule!

posted by Neil 1a.m./Relent on 10/22/2010

FAT and DRY Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

Knowing God's word is so much different from experiencing the Power of God's word.

It's not enough to know or else we will be ever-knowing but never experiencing God's word which is of another level.

Knowing God's word can get us, believe it or not, to places where we can experience dryness.

Also... I know that the word of God is like milk, meat and water (Totally essential for our body) but if in our physical state just keep eating and eating and not burning those regular essentials in our body, then we can graduate to being fat and not fit.

A lot of us are fat in God's word but not fit to execute it.

So two things,



Don't get me wrong when I say this...

It just that aside from me having my fair share of experience in life, some members in the band experience the same dryness or to some people, FAT, spiritually.

Something has to be done and the way I see it, it's only when we apply those words into action for our lives, we then experience the power of God.

Personally, the one word that God has been drilling in my heart, mind and soul is the word obedience.

Obedience is just a word. It comes to life when our lifestyle defines it.

God help us.

posted by Neil 1a.m./Relent on 09/30/2010

Mirror, Mirror on the wall Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

Mirror, Mirror on the wall
Who in the land is fairest of all?
-Snow White-

Jeremiah 33:20 mentions the word "covenant".

"20 "This is what the LORD says: 'If you can break my covenant with the day and my covenant with the night, so that day and night no longer come at their appointed time, 21 then my covenant with David my servant-and my covenant with the Levites who are priests ministering before me-can be broken and David will no longer have a descendant to reign on his throne. "

It is again mentioned in V25

"25 This is what the LORD says: 'If I have not established my covenant with day and night and the fixed laws of heaven and earth,....."

I was reminded about our God being a faithful God. How He keeps His word. How words like Grace, Mercy, Love, etc etc, truly reflects who He really is.

I was asked this question, "God is faithful in your life, what about you(Neil)?"

Reading the bible was like looking at a mirror this morning.
I saw my mishaps, I saw my flaws. I know there are things to do but often find myself complacent to even execute certain things.

Comparing myself with God is a bad comparison. It's like comparing something with nothing.

Do you know the feeling of waking up in the morning with a heavy heart feeling unfruitful?
Something needs to be done. So my application from this devotion is to Fast and be Fruitful.

Prayer: Lord give me a jump start.

posted by Neil1am/Relent on 08/02/2010

Pain In The Eyes That I Have Yet To See Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

It's been a heck of a week for me and the team; coming out with new ideas, ways to communicate, how to increase awareness on issues that we are passionate about in Change Your World.

We are all stoked for all that's happening, Change Your World Quests are taking place real soon and we can't help it but to be on fire about all this stuff, more reason to be busy to change the world.

But I ask myself this question, why am I doing what I am doing? Well to be frank, this all about this verse, and I has never been more real to me than these last few months.

The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion-to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor.

ISAIAH 61:1 – 3

I may talk a lot of smack, but really what tears me inside is the fact that the amount of injustice that is out there, increasingly in numbers and victims. It tears me to hear another kid missing, that a girl in Nepal had just been sold to prostitution by her aunt for a small amount of rupees, young boys and girls in Bangkok are being chained down, locked up like prisoners for sex tourist to use them for a night, repeatedly.

It makes me sick, chill to my bones that this is all happening while we as who we are, people that are blessed with opportunities, choices and resources refuse, refuse to make that choice to help, instead we go around doing things that wouldn't even matter 10 minutes later.

I am not saying that life should not be enjoyed by the little things that we do, as some readers would think that way by now, but give me this opportunity to say, how about the joy in the little and big things that we do that matters? That matters to someone's life? Isn't it ignorant to say that 'I am blessed' and refuse to help those who are in need desperately? Ignorance is ugly; cover up with all the things that you wear but that what you wear will never be who you are.

Most of us wouldn't know what pain that these boys and girls, men and women that was trafficked across the globe for labor, sex, beaten up and amusement for those who couldn't care less for humanity, let me tell you, the pain that you through daily wouldn't measure up to the pain and fear that they live on constantly by a second.

There is that joy that I wish to see one day, that we could hold that girl, that boy by their face and tell them that it's all ok now, that you don't have to go through tonight what you have just been through last night, that you now can live life as child that you ought to be.

To see the pain in their eyes to fade away little, knowing that they are safe now, knowing that there are actually people out there that care. That is willing to go out of their comfort zone to save them. That is willing to make a difference.

Almost every night before I go to sleep I think about these people, I think how these people go to bed tonight? Are their beds as comfortable as mine? Did they get to eat a good dinner as I did? Do they have clean clothes as we are throwing away clothes that just out of date? Did they cry just wishing that someone out there would come and rescue, cry because it hurts to be used but not loved, cry because the pain is no longer bearable to their physical being, tears that longs to have tears of joy instead of tears of suffering?

There is just so much anger in me, anger towards what happening to them, pain in me, pain for our culture that embraces richness, luxury, ignorance, indifferent towards things that matters.

We all have been a victim of ignorance; we need to rescue our mind, our thinking, and our heart before we become completely oblivious in which Isaiah 61:1 says.

Change your world to change the world. Because someone's life depends on it.

posted by Daniel 1am/Relent on 06/29/2010

Sometimes I wish Super-Heroes were REAL Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

When I was a kid, I was exposed to a lot of "kryptonite"... hehe...

No really... I was exposed to a lot of super-hero movies like Spiderman, Superman, Batman, Hulk etc etc, count the Ninja Turtles in as well, that I dreamt about being a super-hero as well.

I would design my own car with a lot of buttons, make a blue-print of my hide-out or cave, save money(lunch money) to buy weapons(I think =P, or was it design my own weapons), be a scientist and discover how heroes gained there power and somehow have it as well.

I remember after watching Spiderman, I was 7, me and this senior girl were waiting for the school bus so we talked about Spidey. She told me that if I put baby oil on my hands and legs, I would be able to climb walls.

And so I went home and..... I think you get the picture =P

Super-heroes have this effect on kids that not only you want to feel safe but also a desire to save the world. Obviously fame would be a part of it all but it does have that effect.

As a grown-up, if they were real... they would give hope, secure peace and justice.

But it's not real. There is no man wearing a red/blue tights, no man crawling on walls or flying in the air without a plane or a man running at the speed of light. If there were... they would all be in America and some in Japan (robots)=P

We can be heroes in our own way... YOU presently could be a hero to someone that you don't even know thinks the world of you.

What makes us Super? It's simple. God.

We have a Super God that we believe in and that makes us Super.

With Him on our side... there's nothing to fear.

posted by Neil 1a.m./Relent on 06/16/2010

The “Superficial” Ability Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

Another ability discovered : The act of being Superficial
1. of, relating to, being near, or forming the surface
2. displaying a lack of thoroughness or care
3. only outwardly apparent rather than genuine or actual
4. of little substance or significance
5. lacking originality or profundity
The power to do something but having no conviction. It's different from the other ability: Numb.

This is like you actually know what you are doing but the purpose of doing it is where the question is asked.
Read the book of Isaiah 58 (Again the thought of "will you actually read it or skip it" comes to mind.. hehe.. sorry)

In short, the whole thing was about how God was disgusted(maybe too strong of a word) about the way His people were in the the area of fasting or in worship.

The Message Version
"....They're busy, busy, busy at worship,
and love studying all about me.
To all appearances they're a nation of right-living people-
law-abiding, God-honoring."

They got all the moves right. They got their hands in the air, dancing and singing, listening to the word of God, fast 1 day, 2 days.... 1 week, etc but what was wrong?

God wasn't happy coz His people where using the "superficial" ability on Him. They did what they thought was right for their own gain forgetting what matters the most.

You see, God wants us to do something. What you need or want, He knows but do we know what He wants us to do or need us to do?

"12 Those from among you
Shall build the old waste places;
You shall raise up the foundations of many generations;
And you shall be called the Repairer of the Breach,
The Restorer of Streets to Dwell In"

We are called to Build, Raise, Repair and Restore what was broken for the Kingdom of God but how could we if our foundations is based on a "superficial" walk with God.

Personal Check:
I need to re-check, eject everything that I feel is not right.
Re-start if I have too.
Settle for a genuine relationship, walk the talk, love and care what matters to Him the most. I can't say I love God and not do what He wants me to do.

"Action without love is no different from an actor/actress on TV, where at the end of the day, nothing is real."

posted by Neil on 06/02/2010

The Numb Ability Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

Numb meaning : Deprived of the power to feel or move normally

"Deprive" is a strong word. Combining it with "Power" is too strong. Imagine not having the power to feel or even.... to "just" move normally?

This should be an idea given to the makers of Heroes for a hero-ability... "the power of numbness"

To be a Hero in the Heroes series, you obviously have to have an ability.

You have to be injected by a formula to have an ability. (Unless your parents have been injected in the past and you inherited it from birth)

BUT in the real world, the "numb" ability need not to be injected for it is something that we all are born with. It's just a matter of time, season, situation, an incident that occurs in life that will cause us to feel all numb.

Isaiah 57:11(NIV)

...Is it not because I have long been silent
that you do not fear me?

(Message version)

"....Because I don't yell and make a scene
do you think I don't exist?"

Have you ever had an incident where you were excited at first but now no longer excited? What started out as a desire turned into a routine? What you loved the most just became normal like the rest? You don't feel the same like before, in fact you don't feel anything at all?

What about with God? When we do something wrong in His sight? We know we are not suppose to do "it"... yet we do anyway... and because God has kept silent, we do it over and over to the point that the fear of the Lord is almost non-existant? That's numbness right there.

Just because God doesn't do anything doesn't mean He does not exist. Just because you don't face your consequences does not mean He is quiet.

It just means that He is Full of Grace, Full of Mercy and Full of Love. He's giving us time to change, so He's doing something.

I pray that I don't become numb. I pray that YOU don't become numb.

I pray that we continue to live in the fear of the Lord, having the conviction to do whats right, to know whats wrong and not be tricked by the enemy into thinking everything is ok.

posted by Neil on 05/25/2010

Vessels for Honor Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

When I come across the word "honor", I think about Knights all of a sudden.

I use to watch a lot of cartoons like "Prince Valiant", "King Arthur", "Robin Hood". Even the "Lord of the Rings" had some magical knights as well but I think my favorite knight movie would be "A Knights Tale"

I guess it's because they fought for honor, truth and Justice.

Acc. to wiki
"Knights of the medieval era were asked to "Protect the weak, defenseless, helpless, and fight for the general welfare of all"."

Now say, THAT'S ME! =)

Surprisingly, their responsibilities were hard to accomplish fully that even the best of knights had a tough time achieving these goals.

Now say, THAT'S NOT ME! =P

Being a Knight is no joke.

Reading the book of Isaiah, it brought me to 2 Timothy 2:21 which says
"21 Therefore if anyone cleanses himself from the latter, he will be a vessel for honor, sanctified and useful for the Master, prepared for every good work"

How many of us want to be Vessels for Honor?

What's a Vessel anyway?
A hollow utensil, such as a cup, vase, or pitcher, used as a container, especially for liquids.

We are Vessels. Vessels for the Lord! God wants to use you! Do you want to be used for the Glory of the King?
One of the words that caught my attention when reading the verse is the word "USEFUL"

Now, I want to be USEFUL to the Lord. I want to be ready and available in all things that God has for me. I'm sure you want to be too. So what's stopping you? What's stopping us?

I remember a story about a cup. Now how can a cup be filled if the cup is already full? It will just overflow.... wasted.

You see...

We know we are vessels but the problem is, we are always full. Our lives are filled with our own agendas or maybe we are just full of ourselves.

How can God fill us if already we are full of ourselves?
We have to be empty so that God can use us. We need to throw off, clean ourselves and get rid of things that will prevent us from ever being useful to the Lord.

The knights may have had a hard time in fulfilling their responsibilities but it shouldn't be for us.

So cleanup and let's rise to the occasion mighty men and women of God.

Let's be USEFUL!

posted by Neil on 05/14/2010

Forget and be Forgotten Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

3 incidences with the word forget.

1 – Forgive and Forget – Obviously when someone does you wrong, you can choose to not forgive the person or what we all mostly do, forgive and forget and move forward.

2- Forgetting things – I have this VERY bad habit of putting my things in places where I may not return. Next thing I know, I don't remember where I put them. Sigh... mock all you want but I'm changing... and that's good news!

3- To be forgotten – Have you ever done something to help others or an event where at the end of the day you were not mentioned, or in other words... "forgotten" that you even did anything? Other people get the glory and you don't? I had my journey in this where I learnt that the witness of the Father is worth more than any witness given by men and women.

Anyway, that's not the reason of this blog..

Isaiah 17:10-11

10 You have forgotten God your Savior;
you have not remembered the Rock, your fortress.
Therefore, though you set out the finest plants
and plant imported vines,

11 though on the day you set them out, you make them grow,
and on the morning when you plant them, you bring them to bud,
yet the harvest will be as nothing
in the day of disease and incurable pain.

This is what I got from this passage...

You can do your best in all that you do but if you have forgotten, not remember our God in all that we do, who is our strength, our provider, our rock, our salvation... it would be all be in vain. What we do without Him will not last, it will fade.

In all we do.. Remember and don't forget who God is in your life.

posted by Neil on 03/19/2010

Missing The Point Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

Isaiah 6 (The Message)

9-10He said, "Go and tell this people:

"'Listen hard, but you aren't going to get it;
look hard, but you won't catch on.'
Make these people blockheads,with fingers in their ears and blindfolds on their eyes,So they won't see a thing,
won't hear a word, So they won't have a clue about what's going onand, yes, so they won't turn around and be made whole."

I hope I don't need to explain myself as the words are pretty clear. So are we missing the point?

We are all guilty, one way or the other when it comes to instructions, or understanding people, even ourselves.

One of my not so favorite moment in my relationship is the part where me and my gf argue =P Sigh, she'll always be victorious =P hehehe.. Just kidding..

But yea, we kinda drag the conversation just becoz somewhere along the lines, we missed the point. If not careful, it can get pretty frustrating but thank God for His grace.

There are other reasons, like in my working environment with my band mates, office mates and my bosses... instructions, understanding, communication, vision can get no where if we miss the point.

I personally don't like it when I am told in the office to write down something that I already know is my responsibility, BUT I can't blame anyone asking me to do so. It should be a practice if these are areas I need to work on and change. Just becoz we work at church, does not mean we "get the point".

We all have our challenges and I pray that through it all, we DON'T MISS THE POINT AT ALL!

posted by Neil on 03/01/2010

Salt & Light Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

For the whole of Chinese New Year (actually 12 days of being back at home in KK) life went slow. Spending QUALITY time with my family and relatives, catching up time with my girlfriend, and generally making jokes about how long my hair has become and how pretty I mom admittedly said she has two daughters instead of two sons...being my bro also has long hair... (insert laughter here).

Although away from work and away from hectic KL, God continued to speak into me.
I remember when the preacher of my home church flashed out this sentence into the projection:

What is 1st in the eyes of man will be last in the eyes of God.
What is last in the eyes of man will 1st in the eyes of God.

Now we already KNOW that and normally we would just brush it aside and try our very best to be 1st in God's eyes.
But that sentence was very different to me that particular Sunday for some reason.
Think about this: If we want to be last in the eyes of man, technically speaking us Christians are to be 'boring', uninteresting, and generally people would start looking for something else instead of looking at us. Where then is our chance of being salt and light...when people put us last in their eyes?

Being a musician that tours with a fantastic ministry to shout God's fame kinda contradicts that statement in certain ways.
I'm not trying to be a heretic but...if God gave me the talent to play...and opportunity to play in front of many to be an influence and impact...then being 1st (or at least being interesting enough for me to be an influence) is kinda what we should aim for.

So wrestling the's not that the Bible isn't true or the Word of God is contradictory, but it's a foundation for us in making our stand in how we can shout God's fame without shouting our own, how being salt and light doesn't need to be in a superstar position, or even being boring and irrelevant to the world.
How then do we approach this thought?

Being humble.

Psalm 25:9
He guides the humble in what is right and teaches them his way.

Matthew 23:12
For whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and whoever humbles himself will be exalted.

Matthew 18:4
Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

I think..our focus shouldn't be being all that in 1st in eyes of men or 1st in eyes of God.
But rather being humble in all we do...allow God to impart and teach us...and God will take care of the rest.
It's challenging..but it's worth it.

posted by Jude on 02/23/2010

UN-recognised refugees to get ID cards Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

Come on! JUSTICE IS IN THE HOUSE. Continue to pray for More breakthroughs. Together we can Change the World cause We Make The Difference.

Star Newspaper: Tuesday Feb 2,2010
Sec-gen: UN-recognised refugees to get ID cards

KUALA LUMPUR: Malaysia plans to issue identification cards to refugees who are recognised by the United Nations, allowing them to stay in the country temporarily and avoid arrest as illegal immigrants.
Home Ministry secretary-general Datuk Seri Mahmood Adam said the Government would work with the UN refugee agency to issue the cards so that immigration enforcement personnel would recognise and spare UN-designated refugees.
"As long as they are recognised as refugees by the UN, they can stay here temporarily," he said yesterday.
"They cannot work here, but they can do odd jobs."
He could not give an exact time-line but said the initiative was in the "final stage."

According to the UN agency, about 75,600 refugees and asylum-seekers were in Malaysia as of November last year. Most fled persecution in Myanmar.

Yante Ismail, a spokeswoman for the UN High Commissioner for Refugees, welcomed the development.
"Proper documentation for refugees is essential to their protection," she said.

All of the refugees in Malaysia are waiting to be resettled to a third country that officially accepts refugees. - AP

posted by cruz on 02/17/2010

A Dedication To The Heroes Of CYW Kuching Subscribe To My Blog (RSS)(Click this icon to Subscribe)

We were amazed how we had a FULL HOUSE in Change Your World Kuching with over 890 passes sold even though they had only 1 1/2 months to CYW Kuching main event. Technically speaking they had only less than 30 days as they only started doing CYW Quest (Pre-event) 20+ days before CYW Tour (Main event).

We had decided in Dec 2009 to cancel CYW Kuching as our champion for Kuching pulled out in Nov 2009 due to some unforeseen circumstances.

Our first Hero we would like to make mention is Kong Nai Lin our City Coordinator. She works in Kuala Lumpur but felt CYW was too good to pass by her city Kuching (her hometown) and she took up the challenge. Because of her passion & faith we agreed to do CYW Kuching.

She took 1 and half months off from her work and went to as many churches in Kuching knocking their doors and at the end she had about 5 churches only committed to CYW Kuching.

So we decided to talk to Nai Lin our City Coordinator for Kuching and found out what was the key that made it all happen. In her own words, "It's God and a team of leaders and young people who are passionate to sow into this generation."

These are some of the HEROES we like to make mention and we hope this will encourage and inspire all of you reading this, that it's never too young to make a difference.

1. Charmaine Chung, 15 years old:
Spurred her friends (Guinevieve + Millicent) to do 450 flyers (come with a poem) to distribute in their school. The same flyer had been used in 3 other schools.

2. Guinevieve Liaw, 15 years old:
Brought Quest into an all boys school impacting 102 boys with Quest. Overcame her shy self and did a simple icebreaker with them. She and her friends sold more than 120 passes.

3. Millicent Goh, 15 years old:
First to respond to Change Your World Kuching and had 14 people at her house for Quest 1. By the second Quest, with friends bringing other friends - Quests started in 5 different schools.

4. Cynthia Sim, 15 years old:
From the first Quest, brought Quest into her school – assembly 650++ students impacted. Teachers were too inspired.

5. Franklin Simon, 23 years old:
Alongside with Mike and Ronald (Captains of Boys Brigade) linked 2 other churches, and 4 Boys Brigade companies for Quest. Sold over 130 passes.

6. Sarah Lasung, 26 years old:
First leader to respond in partnering with CYW, her youth spread and did Quests in 2 other schools and linked 1 more church into our network. More than 180 passes sold.

7. Kang Wen-Ji, 26 years old:
Prayed for the CYW throughout, giving ME a lot of prayer support. Linked us to both her English and Chinese Youth Advisors in her church alongside with Nic (from KBU - Damansara church). This church alone sold 45 passes in 1 week.

8. Elaine Yong, 17 years old:
Presented the CYW Quest in 5 different schools, 3 churches and her own home.

To all the Heroes who did the CYW Quest, ushers, helpers, security, sales team, drivers, our hosts who accommodated us in their homes, sound & light team, prayer warriors and the heroes who invited their friends you know who you are, we want to say "YOU MAKE THE DIFFERENCE" in changing Kuching.

Oh by the way, you guys and gals broke the record in investing to Change Your World Ipoh. Kuching gave RM2,792.00. Who says young people don't care?


Kelvin Lim
Change Your World Director

Kuching Heroes we hope to hear lots of stories from the Ventures you all will be engaging in. Please do share it in the Facebook group called "I Love Kuching".

posted by Kelvin on 02/06/2010

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There's so much to thank God and give Him the glory for all He is doing for Change Your World Kuching. The momentum is building strong and we are almost to the brink of what the hall can contain.We have about 700 so far have bought the tickets and it's still climbing.

Lots of testimonies about the quest and we are sure there's going to be a lot about the event and the venture.

We will be sharing more as we gather all the stories and testimonies.

Pray for us as we journey to bring change to our city and nation.

For more info check out

God bless

posted by Kelvin on 01/28/2010

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The Band reached the venue at about 11am. The dancers reached there at about the similar time.

Everybody was on the move, the video team and crew, sound team and crew, ushers, volunteers. Honestly, it's these guys that make the whole thing happen. The reason why people are able to have a great time is mainly because of the time and effort made by these people "behind the scenes"

Everyone giving there best in what they do, some of them challenged as it is their first time to volunteer in such an event, some of them benefitting from the experience like our 1a.m. intern Ryan Nair from Kluang.

We gathered outside of the auditorium where P.C. shared a word of encouragement reminding us(band, crew, volunteers, etc) why we do what we do and GOD alone should deserve all the GLORY.

I remember this verse where it says "God dwells in the praises of his people!" in other words we need to be in One Accord praising Him in all circumstances if we want to see His Glory upon us!

Physically we may get tired but we should never let our spiritual tank get empty!

posted by Neil1am on 12/08/2009

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It's been days since CYW Penang. All we can do now is pray, believe, wait and trust God to move in that CITY.

Where do I start?

I remember walking in the Auditorium setting up our instruments and getting ready for sound check. I told Cuz, "What a waste if not a lot of people show up..."

The past few weeks where crazy from our side. 4 hours of practices almost everyday, some of us had sleepless nights preparing what needs to be done for the event. It takes a lot to step out of your comfort zone but all this was worth it.

Why? Cause if CHANGE has to happen then it has to start with us!

Some of our crew members were up and ready at 5:30am. I salute them. In fact some of them had already pre-planned their leaves just to make it for this event. It's not that often we find people like that. We are blessed to have such people who are sold out for the cause.

In total, there where about 16 of us from KL that came to Penang. Not as big as the team in Kluang but the team had a big heart which was important in this trip.

The band together with P.C. ( Pastor Cathryn) and Kelvin were still in the hotel. We had some of our dancers picked up in the airport who travelled on the day itself.

I woke up reading a scripture which says "Lord you have assigned me my portion and my cup"

That was encouraging knowing that God has prepared for us everything even before the day had begun. We didn't know what to expect, except, expect God to move.

posted by Neil1am on 12/08/2009

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Change Your World Penang Tour: The Beginning
November 24th, 2009

Hello World Changers!

November 22nd, CYW event day, was a 17-hour non-stop preparation for the tour.
We're only able to tell you a glimpse of it today, because this morning (23 Nov), with 4-5 hours of sleep, 1a.m. and Relent, with some Penang Change Agents, while everyone is still asleep, went to Rifle Range to help the poor community. In case you do not know, Rifle Range is the high density, low cost, and ghetto-like flats, home to prostitutes, gangsters, and one of the poorest community area in Penang.

We will share with you more about this in the next post!

We just wanted to say a big thank you to all who believed and supported Change Your World. You are the Agents of Change. The tour was a blast because YOU made the decision to believe in CHANGE.
We hope this is a beginning of a new relationship where we can grow together to see change, not only in Penang, but in the whole of Malaysia.

Follow us in the next few days with more updates including pictures and videos of the event and the venture.
1a.m. & Relent

Hello World Changers!

November 22nd, CYW event day, was a 17-hour non-stop preparation for the tour.

We're only able to tell you a glimpse of it today, because this morning (23 Nov), with 4-5 hours of sleep, 1a.m. and Relent, with some Penang Change Agents, while everyone is still asleep, went to Rifle Range to help the poor community. In case you do not know, Rifle Range is the high density, low cost, and ghetto-like flats, home to protitutes, gangsters, and one of the poorest community area in Penang. We will share with you more about this in the next post!

We just wanted to say a big thank you to all who believed and supported Change Your World. You are the Agents of Change. The tour was a blast because YOU made the decision to believe in CHANGE.

We hope this is a beginning of a new relationship where we can grow together to see change, not only in Penang, but in the whole of Malaysia.

Follow us in the next few days with more updates including pictures and videos of the event and the venture.

1a.m. & Relent

posted by Kelvin Lim on 11/25/2009

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Change Dare!

Oh Pooi Ling took our 31 days Change Dare on sms and this is her email to us about what it has done for her. She is educated in a Chinese school and therefore her English is not good. We did not want to change much of the grammar as we want it to be as authentic and real.

From many Dares,just 1 dares is not forgetable. Dare 10 :"We dare u to want to be a leader by emailling us at and say I want change , we will get someone in your city to speak to you".

Three days ago, i received a call and a man asked me you really want to change? Tomorrow we will go to railway station there to help people who are in need, do you want to go with me? I agreed.

Before go to the place, I never think Kluang has a another face ,i thought Kluang is a beautiful place and harmonic place, but now I know Kluang really need to be change. In that day,just only 10-12 volunteers ,we go to a home to another home visited and gave them food supplies .I never forget a child, he was sick but he is very sanguine, I never seen a child with such hopes to live. He gaved me a bigger touched and a memorable day.


posted by Kelvin Lim on 11/18/2009

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I was deeply moved and inspired by the I Love Kluang project!

"...and in this day and age where many of us are simply cynical that our country will ever change, I came away inspired that a bunch of young Malaysians were willing to step out humbly with a heart that said, I will do my part to change the world."

"I think it's important for young people to learn to love their country, be proud of where they come from, and come back, eventually, to serve their community and their nation. Life is not just about getting the most comfortable lives for ourselves"

The same exact words resonate in my heart. This email was a good reminder of why I am becoming a doctor and why I want to go back to home, my country to serve!

Christopher Kia is now in Australia finishing his studies in medicine

posted by Kelvin Lim on 11/14/2009

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I LOVE Kluang Project – An Interview with Pastor Jit Pang by Jasmine Yow

A wave of Change has been launched in the little town of Kluang, Johor, as a result of the Change Your World venture that began with Change Your World Quest in August 2009. The Change Your World Event on 23 August 2009 inspired many youths to start loving their city and nation, and as a result, the I LOVE Kluang project was born.

Ps Jit PangI caught up with Pastor Jit Pang, the guy behind the I LOVE Kluang initiative today to find out what has been happening in his city, and in this day and age where many of us are simply cynical that our country will ever change, I came away inspired that a bunch of young Malaysians were willing to step out humbly with a heart that said, I will do my part to change the world.

1. Why was I LOVE Kluang started, and what is it about?

It actually started off as the Railway Line Project in April when some youth in the youth group I lead alerted me about a poor family eating only one meal per day. I wanted to love the community in a practical way, so I thought, why not we start feeding the one household we knew?

The next month, we discovered there were families living in a squatter area along the whole Railway Line and low cost housing areas in Kluang that lived in abject poverty, and we quickly multiplied our help to a dozen households.

After the Change Your World Event, a hundred over youths pledged to do something for Malaysia, and we decided to turn this into the I LOVE Kluang project because loving Kluang is exactly what we want to do.

2. The way I see it, you could have continued the Railway Line Project without Change Your World Kluang. What role did it actually play in your work?

True, it isn't really about whether we have an event or not. But when I started the Railway Line Project, it only involved 60 or so Christians from my Youth Group. Change Your World Kluang created greater awareness of needs in the community, and helped challenge a whole community of different races and religions to join hands with us to love our city. It has made our project more inclusive and created an avenue for us to have greater influence in Kluang.

3. How big is I LOVE Kluang today?

I LOVE KLUANG PROJECTThe more needs we make an effort to find out, the more we discover. My heart is to make a difference in this community of 140,000 people. Right now, there are about 190 young people committed to visit, feed, and help 56 poor families in Kluang. Financial contribution comes from the community such as the Country Club, Rotary Club, individuals from the community as well as the church. Recently, MIC also agreed to contribute after hearing about what we're doing. The kids go shopping with me and we do our major delivery to the families once a month. We also visit old folks' homes , do gotong-royongs, paint houses, and I spend time doing a leadership series called Habitudes with the kids. I want to invest in their lives as well. I think that's very important.

4. Change Your World is a Christian Event. Are the people involved in I LOVE Kluang all Christians? Does it matter?

Some people are hesitant about Christian charities, but loving people is not about religion. I sincerely believe that loving the community should come with no ulterior motive. The religions of the volunteers or the families don't matter. In fact, 130 of the kids who are involved in I LOVE Kluang are prebelievers.

5. Please share some inspiring stories of what some of the young people have done with us.

I LOVE KLUANG PROJECTThere are simply too many to share! The one that stands out most is a nineteen year old Lower Six girl who was immediately moved with compassion the first day she came with us to visit these families. She and two other girls decided to take turns to bring one old lady to the doctor every day to get her ankle wound changed because she has difficulty getting around (Now the nurse comes to the home instead). She also brings clean water to one family every other day. Unsure about her abilities to become a doctor at first, she is now inspired and more determined to achieve her dream after being aware of the many needs she can meet.

6. What is the biggest challenge you face in doing all this?


I wear a lot of hats in I LOVE Kluang and I sometimes think I have bitten off more than I can chew! ;) We yearn for more people to step up and contribute to I LOVE Kluang on the grassroots level. What we really need are young adults or adults who are willing to do the "dirty work", such as taking care of administration and bringing the kids out to visit the families on the ground. It is a job that takes sacrifice, but if we hope to impart the love for our nation in the next generation, the only way to do it is to show them by our practical action because more is caught than is ever taught. Right now I do it every week, and it can get overwhelming at times as I also have to look for sponsorship from the community and take care of finance and administration, on top of my own job as a youth pastor.

7. What do you want to tell young Malaysians?

I LOVE KLUANG PROJECTGod's heart is for the nation, for the needy, poor, and oppressed, and we need to bring back that love. In old folks' homes, you can see old folks who have kids doing so well overseas...and yet their parents are left alone. I think it's important for young people to learn to love their country, be proud of where they come from, and come back, eventually, to serve their community and their nation. Life is not just about getting the most comfortable lives for ourselves. : )

8. What is I LOVE Kluang looking at in the future?

We are raising RM25000 for our Uniform Project which is going to be held on 19 December 2009. We want to provide new uniforms and shoes for 250 kids from these poor families. My heart is also to share this project with other towns in the south and rally them to start looking out for needs in their community as well.

Check out the official Change Your World recap at

posted by Kelvin Lim on 11/10/2009

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It is way past midnight (oh yes, my BEDTIME too!) and I'm still wide awake. The reddish grey cloud outside is already hinting that rain is inevitable while the accompanying cool breeze is saying amen to that! Lovely...

I can't help myself from munching the hot potato PIK-NIK "Shoestrings" while writing is so addictive I'm beginning to think that if I don't stop now I'll continue eating it like an Eat-To-Sleep Chewing Machine! Oh don't worry, I don't do that all the time...and my current weight is still it's okay...

By the way, there's a SMALL bowl of Cruzer's Daybreak Salad waiting for me in the kitchen!
Hmmm...anyway, I'm just thinking...

If again tomorrow night I can't sleep, despite the perfect weather, will I drug myself with more junk food or will I turn to the solid spiritual food? Shhh...I know...Yes; lately, I've been so challenged and healthily bugged by the word of God written in Joshua 1:8. It says...

"Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful". (NIV)

You see...too many of us, me included, I'm pretty sure we've came across this scripture too many times we overlooked the lamb-chop-like juice of truth it contains. Often time I realize I'd focus more on the "God's Promise" part of the scripture neglecting the "My Action" part. It is as though I was too hungry I couldn't wait for my lamb chop to cook I ate it raw – far off from His plan for me to enjoy the meat well done.

The thing about me (and probably you too) is that I don't really love waiting and I want what I want right here right now. That's how I am sometimes. I wanna be prosperous and I wanna be successful and I want them both fast, minus having to go through any hurdles. It is like I'm demanding for the profit but totally choose to forget about the investments! It doesn't work that way, right?

But God being the fair Boss, His strategy is different – always! Not that He loves to withhold His promises, but in my own opinion, He is just not a fan of having to fork out salary advances to any of His servants. Unless faith actions are constantly and sincerely shown, He can choose to delay in delivering the desires of my heart...and He will not surprisingly do just that!

The whole experience of being enlightened by this simple verse has really caused me to dig in whatever I read so much deeper with the quest to find a fresh revelation and the whole package that comes with it. Like those who serves in the oil and gas industry, they dig deeper not with the goal to find out more about dinosaurs or fossils they knew ever existed; their prize – the oil and gas itself! Likewise, my attitude is not to just read whatever that is visible but beyond.
That's just one of the things I learned...would love to share more juice with you again next time...perhaps in one of my other sleepless nights. Til then, enjoy what I'm leaving behind for you...

Cruzer's Daybreak Salad Recipe:
Chicken Sausages with Cheese and Chili – raw, sliced to your hotness;
Onions, sliced thin enough to remind you of the unnecessary fat you might gain;
Tomato, sliced to the number of hours you have left in bed;
Carrots, sliced enough to shut your Parrot mouth;
Coral Leaves/Lettuces, generously green enough to remind you Jude is a vegetarian;
Sprinkles of coarse Black Pepper, as desired as you would tiny sweet moles on your face;
French Dressing, poured to perfection to romance your taste bud.

*would be nicer with Parmesan Cheese & Croutons!

Best paired with: Iced Lemon Tea chilled at -2°c.

Total Preparation Time: 7 minutes

Accompanying Soundtracks:
Nightminds by Missy Higgins
Water Feels Warm by Electralow
Hide Me by Grandad Bob

posted by Cuz1am on 04/30/2009

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The sight of my apartment in KL...
The noisy cars that pass by everyday...
The view of a warehouse, FROM a warehouse...
( I'll keep this short since my previous one was amazingly long)

Being back from holidays is always a bummer for most people, I'm one of them and most probably you are too. I made a conclusion that the one that needs a holiday the most are the ones that just had them(insert laughter here). Ah...I remember the feeling when I first touched down to KL last year to join 1a.m., oddly I felt the same when I arrived last night from KK. Oh well, I guess the only thing in life that God wants us to move in is forward.

If you didn't know I went back to KK for the holiday season and I THANK GOD that I went back, so refreshing and really got me into the holiday mood. As usual for CNY I went back with my family to Sandakan and did 2 things: Eat, and collect Ang Paus. Ok you have to understand this, my grandfather married THREE TIMES...he must be very good looking...and as a result I have an array of aunties and uncles...some I never met before, and the good thing about that is...MORE ANG PAU. (Insert evil laughter here). So really it's a blessing in disguise, although all of them thought of me as a girl cos of my hair. It was a really good chance for me to spend time with my family specially my brother and as guys don't spend much time together. I really felt burden specially for my dad, cos since young I was never attached to him (I'm a mommy's boy), so I took EXTRA effort to really spend time with my dad. Which I did, and really I thank God I did, cos now I feel we're more bonded together and now we talk more. Of course it was awkward and needs getting used to but it's a journey I guess.

Well, to share one thing with you guys one thing that God spoke to me this week in my devotion (we call it vedotion sometimes) he made me look at my ang paus...the wonderful time I had with my awesome KK is...all those things...they are of extreme value to me, but will someday be gone. But in my devotion it says:

"Lasting treasures lie in the riches of love, joy, peace,

goodness, grace and mercy that God lavishes on his children EVERYDAY".

Isn't that awesome...EVERYDAY!!

Which means everyday is Chinese New Year to us cos he gives us "Ang Paus" that are filled with love, joy, grace, mercy, peace and everything that is for our spiritual, physical and emotional growth and benefit!!

God really open my eyes to see that earthly things though of VALUE to of extreme small value compared to God's grace and love. I took the time to thank God in every capacity that I can think of...being able to receive ang paus, spend time with my family, serving Him full time, BEING ALIVE, and ALL the awesome "ang paus" that he LAVISHES us daily. He deserves all the glory and honour and thanks in my life.

Ready to receive a daily dose of God's Ang Pau?

posted by Jude1am on 02/06/2009

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So it was a Friday afternoon, I had an Intro to Business class and my word, did I enjoy this class.

A little side note here.... when I was in high school I purposely chose the science stream coz I hated Business. Who would have known that I'll be learning a bit on Business in college again...wahhhhhhhhhhhhh ... definitely not me.

I kinda felt like Jonah where you like try to run away from what your suppose to do or face only to find yourself submit to whatever you are running from =)

Anyway, You got to love God coz for whatever reason you think ain't worth knowing is worth knowing In God's Eyes!

In other words, just move with the flow knowing that God is in Control!!!

We had this game which the teacher kinda like asked us to play in a room with 5 students (The rest must be running away... hehehe). It was a "Survival simulation game".

Now I don't know if it's true but it's the same game that companies use when hiring managers. In short the scenario is that you along with your people where in a plane, crashed landed somewhere up north of Canada (How north can you get?!?! =p), its cold, 25 below zero during day time, 40 below zero at night, the nearest town 20 miles away. So you and your surviving buddies manage to salvage a couple of things in the plane....


The list are (not in order)

A ball of steel wool

A small axe

A loaded .45 Caliber pistol

Can of Crisco Shortening

News papers (One per person)

Cigarette lighter (Without Fluid)

Extra T-shirt and pants for each survivor

20x20 ft. piece of heavy duty canvas

A sectional air map made of plastic

One quart of 100-proof whiskey

A compass

Family-size chocolate (One per-person)

Try doing this and see whether you are manger material =) (Comment or email me personally if you want to know the answer to this)

Anyway, I did mine... And guess what?!?!?!?!

I'll be the first one to die in the COLD!!!!

Oh man, that just dropped the nuclear bomb in me and I can hear God say "..... ... ..... . . . . ..."

In other words, sometimes (or most of the times) I get the best of me (overconfident side) to act upon my life rather than listening to Him first and consider the thoughts of others.

When I thought about it, ask me whether my fellow "plane crashers" where part of my survival plan, I'm ashamed to say "NO".

Wow that was an eye opener, heart opener, can opener (however you want to call it) for me. I can see my "humble status" rising as it left a scar in my heart and mind as it's gonna be one of those memories that you'll never forget. I can be very selfish.

But you know what.... Praise God! He reminded me that He is the perfector of our Faith!

Don't ever think "that because things are going great for you everything is ok". We need Jesus all the more.

I'm still amazed with this scene in my life. I still have a lot to learn. I thank God that He's never given up on me despite how many times I feel like giving up.

"A thousand times I failed still your mercy remains, should I stumble again, I'm caught by your Grace" (plays at the back of my mind when writing this =) )

So I "died" in managerial skills but that's all part in Leadership training so I guess I'm in the right class in life.

To be a leader is to go through failures not because you're destined to fail but destined to learn so that you can be a better leader not for yourself, but for God and others.

Rise up!


posted by Neil1am on 01/29/2009

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I can't believe 2008 is gone. Neither am I aware that today is actually the 15th day of 2009! To be honest, I don't even think my new year have begun...I'm still in my holiday mood!

At this point of writing, my dry throat feels like it's gonna tear really soon. It hurts so bad I wanna shove a bucket of ice cream right now...but I can only dream on as it is fasting season now for us here in our church.

I am also feeling a bit tired after making a short but exciting trip to Singapore & Indonesia last weekend together with my drumming family from Drummer For Christ. It was indeed a fun trip for me as I had the opportunity to drum together with this crazy bunch of guys who happens to be the world's finest drummers:

Arthur Kam (winner of Modern Drummer Undiscovered Talent under-18 category for 2008);

Rolf Wam Fjell (Hillsong Australia's very own drumming monster);

Lim Kok Yen (Malaysia's famous drum guru);

Vince Seah (Founder of Drummer For Christ Malaysia);

Derrick Siow (Malaysia's very own Aaron Spears);

Josh Wong (probably one of the good Jazz drummers/bassists in Malaysia).

Travelling with these guys has not only benefitted me in terms of my skills and everything else that has got to do with it but God also have given me the confidence to release words to some of the members of the team...something which I'd reluctantly do not too long ago. Though simple or nothing to brag about, the fact that I was able to confidently speak into their lives has boosted me to avail myself to be a voice that God would use to encourage others even more.

Back track a little bit...Christmas Production – The Heavenly Gift...I truly had fun playing Val, a nerdy angel with a thousand and one and a half questions! It never crossed my mind that I could play that role but I surprised myself & the show went well...

Next week we'll be hitting the studio again to record 1am's 5th (my 2nd) album which should be out, if everything goes as planned, in May or June. It's gonna be a great album. Hmmm...but we pray that it'll be more than just a great record...we want it to be a conduit of the defining moment in the lives of its listeners!

My throat is really uncooperative now...please join me in prayers for its complete healing. It's a bit annoying now I feel I better stop writing here. Will give you guys a buzz again real soon. My head's spinning too! Be blessed...

posted by Cuz1am on 01/23/2009

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Happy New Year to all those that are a bit slow on the dates. Like me, my new year was postponed due to a fever that I got from my younger brother. A day before New Year! It's sad but I loss a lot of weight, so that's something to be happy about.

Year 2009 started with a 7-day prayer and fasting, we do this every year but I decided to do something different, I'm going for the Daniel fast, not because my name is Daniel, but because Pastor Timothy the senior pastor of our church made an awesome statement that got me thinking (and also because I rarely eat vegetable. LOL). Seriously.

He said (I quote, not the exact words) Jesus fasted 40 days because that was what needed for His ministry, and Daniel (the dude in the bible) fasted for 21 days because he wants to change that nation. So my question to myself was this,

1. What am I fasting for and in what capacity of fasting does it require?
2. What is the amount of magnitude do I want to see change in me and around me?
3. Am I going to do it? yeEEEAAAAaaaRR~~~~

Take Zack Hunter for an example, he is a 15 year old dude that take the extra mile so abolish modern day slavery. Just like Bono, helping people in Africa. Why do these people go the extra mile to help others? Why don't they just live in their own comfort? That you ask yourself and find out whether you want to be a world changer or a person just going to pass by without a legacy to pass on (rock and roll hand motion). This reminds me of john Meyer's song Vultures.

Anyway, back on track, by fasting we die to our body and what seems comfortable for us. I'm not going to say that fasting is easy for me; in fact it is the hardest thing to do for me. I love to eat, hence the body size. I like to play computer games, sleep and yeah... you get the picture. But if I want to see change, a sacrifice of the flesh is sufficient to bring me to another level of my life.

I believe that everyone is meant to live so much more (switchfoot?) than what we are living for. We cannot do great things if comfort is what we desire and not change.

We as a team in 1AM is looking forward to our tour this year, and we pray that we can change your world.


posted by Dan1am on 01/22/2009

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Wasabi!!! How's everyone's weekend? Good I hope.

We just finished our 7 Day prayer and fasting as a church.

Let me break it down spiritually and physically.

- Physically I was hungry =p. Lost some kgs so it's a good thing hahaha.

- Spiritually it was great. In a nut shell in conjunction to what I feel God spoke to me personally and ministry wise (which is the year 2009 is the "make it" or "break it" year) I felt God spoke to me about "starting right or miss out". I mean think about it, if we start our day right with God (quiet time) the rest of the day would be perfect. Not that you won't have challenges along the way but the strength, peace, grace, mercy, love etc of God is with you as you go through your day. Why? Coz you started your day right. Now this about this, how much more if you start youryear right?

I went to TGIF the other day with PC (Pastor Cat).

It was a dinner blessed by Roger, the dad of our youngest 1a.m. intern whose name is Eu Wyn, and had my favorite Jack Daniel Burger! It was amazing. I want to thank Manchester United for if it wasn't for them thrashing Chelsea 3-0 I wouldn't be eating at all... hahaha. Seriously.... Thanks Roger!!! You Rock!!! Man Utd Vs Intermilan next ;-)

Well today starts the 1st week of our Change Album recording. So it's official. Cuza goes first so do keep him in prayers that he delivers the best in him for this album.

Yesterday me and Jude were doing guide tracks (What are guide tracks? They are songs that should not be heard online due to bad recording. For drummers only =p). We did a video blog, so you'll probably see it online soon.

It short, the change album will be coming out in the middle of the year so please be excited!

Anyway, I led worship last weekend and had a conversation with God based on Ps 23.
Now most of us know what Ps 23 talks about. It's where it famously starts with
"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want".
One of my challenges this year that I agree to work on is really pray and grow deeper in terms with the word of God. So I read onwards and stumble upon verse 6 where it goes
"Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life..."

I paused for a while and chatted with God a bit and asked Him "Why couldn't goodness and love go ahead instead of following?" Not that I doubted His word but I guess its just one of those ways you use if you want to hear God speak back juicy stuff. You got to ask questions! =)

So I asked and He immediately replied (Love Him=)) and this is what He told me to think of.

In life, we move forward. Our life moves forward not backwards.

Imagine if goodness and love do go ahead of us, in other words we follow. Now there's no guarantee of what life may bring tomorrow or maybe the next few hours so if we fall somewhere we "sort-of" miss out because goodness and love was ahead of us. Its like having 2 of your best buddies run a head of you to get movie tickets where along the way you tripped over the pavement and there was no-one behind you to help you out because your buddies are in front of you.

But lets say, the same incident as the first, goodness and love follow us all the days of our lives that when we fall, we sure won't miss it.

Wow, to me that was comforting. I hope it is to you too.

I don't know where your journey is today but be at peace that you won't miss out the goodness and love of God. And even if you feel like it's ahead of you or you're falling behind, know that our God the Father is watching, turns back, picks you up and puts you on top of His shoulders.

That's the God I love and that's the God I serve.

posted by Neil1am on 01/20/2009

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The year that passed ....

2008 I believe was a year where the Lord has been doing a lot of maintenance in my life. Honestly I feel I haven't done much but if I am going to base my year on the things I do physically (no wonder I'm growing in size) then I've missed the point on what God has been doing internally.

Unlike 2007, we didn't travel much but like I said, MAINTENACE!

It has been challenging as a musician, a leader and a discipler but I believe it's for the good for the year 2009.

Musicianship – I believe there has been growth in 3 areas. First is my songwriting/arrangement abilities. I remember praying to God about really bringing me to the next level in terms of my writing. I struggled as I worked my way through in writing not just worship songs but mainstream song where at the end of the day I wrote more than I expected this year. I've been also listening to a lot of today's music, just to know what's in and out. With that, I've been open to a bit of Jazz and classical music which so broaden my creativity. There has been so much soul searching adding depth to what I write so yeah....Praise God!

2nd and 3rd, my vocals ... hmmm... became better, rockier according to Daniel and my guitar skills... well I bought an Electric Guitar (GRECO 79') so that should answer my abilities. I still play rhythm though.

Leadership – Wow.... I had to step up a lot in situations I felt needed the most. You have to understand that I've always labeled myself as the "Laid Back Leader", just chillin'. I've been reading a leadership book where what struck me was that "A leader is one that steps into the uncertain. You as a leader can afford to be uncertain but cannot afford to be unclear in terms of moving forward."

Personally, I feel I've used my brain so much this year in terms of thoughts, thinking of a clear direction. I may not know the outcome but so far there has always been a direction with a positive outcome. And even if it didn't turn out right, it gave room to grow and learn. This goes out in all the areas I lead may it be as an assistant to Kelvin in terms of our 1a.m. ministry at church, the main band whenever Kel and PC is not around on tour, the youth band(Relent), Creative life, Discipleship etc.

Discipleship – Well I didn't reach my faith goal in this area but I'm happy that the people I follow up grew the next level whether it's their walk with God or serving. I had an additional friend added up in the group and he's been doing great so far!

To see them serve in more than their natural ability is a blessing. I am determine to raise leaders who does not serve where they find comfort but push them to areas where I believe will help them grow and even so determine to raise people who loves God, fueling their passion to serve.

Relationship with the opposite sex – FAILED! Hahaha. Let's see what 2009 has in-stored! I guess I'm still searching. I saw one but I maybe looking at the wrong one. I don't know. Well whoever it may be, I hope she's looking out as well. Bottom line is, what I feel, should be from God.

Enough said.

Overall God has been great in my life. He filled every void that needs to be filled with love and poured so much grace even when I don't deserve them.

What do I mean by that?

Well being foreigner and living in Malaysia away from my family (miss you guys. Dad take-care of yourself, praying for you! I'll see you guys soon) and friends I grew up with can be tough. It's not like I can pay a few hundreds to go back home, I would need a few thousands for the flight and that's a lot so I really thank God for being there always and giving me friends here to grow with.

Grace? How truly sweet the sound of grace is! I am not perfect as a worker at the office, a minister in or out of church, a friend. I mean I didn't graduate as a business man, a good communicator, a super talented guitarist. At times I really feel inadequate with what I do. To be honest there are times I feel I am not the smartest, on top of that I have my challenges. But again, Praise God for it is Him who sustains me, in my weakness He strengthens me and pours out that sufficient grace, that amazing grace I so need everyday in my life.

Serving God, serving the church, serving the people has been a pleasure. I find no regrets.

I'm excited for next year. Everything that took place personally in my life was so that I can step into a bigger picture that God painted for 2009. I know its going to be bigger, better and greater. All for His glory and I know that YOU all are in it!

RELENT is coming soon. Don't know what I'm talking about?... stay tune!

posted by Neil1am on 01/15/2009

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This week for the awesome Jude...
Or they call awesome hotness...
Or just hotness...
Or just awesome...

A new year has dawned...a new start to do things differently...
Newer challenges...newer things to learn...ANOTHER CHANCE to make my year glorify God...

Gosh so excited for this year. Relent recording is gonna resume again after a short hiatus. We just practiced and finalized arrangements for our songs...
Not to boast...but our songs are just so awesome...ok that's boasting but it's a God given it's for His glory...
What song doesn't need bells?! WE NEED THEM BELLS!!
Not to mention the tour we're gonna launch into this much God has in store for us its just exciting..
If you dunno what I'm talking about then STAY TUNED!!

It's the 1st week (2nd technically) but God has already started to reveal so much to me thru my time with him (sometimes I call it a
I remember on a particular Monday (actually that's just a few days away) I was doing my devotions and the devo book mentioned something about God's grace...

Long story short, this guy was floating in the sea stranded...and almost got killed by sharks...but God's grace was upon him and he survived.

Many a times my surroundings fail my existence blurs my work dulls my senses... and I, in turn fail to see that it was God's grace that made me Jude today...
Are my achievements fueled by my aptitude?
Are my moments of peace fed by my solitary shell?
Is my disposition shaped by my own understanding?


I have failed in many areas, yet God's grace pushes me to move.
I have stumbled many a times, yet God's grace picks me up.
I have shut my ears and ignore, yet God's grace spoke through my heart.

I remember during a concert 1a.m. was playing and I COMPLETELY MESSED UP MY GUITAR SOLO... (macam telinga mau koyak bah) no guitar sounded as cheap/weird/tormenting/hancur/all-in-all-really-bad as my guitar that moment... (which I quickly reacted by lowering my volume slightly to avoid further destruction of ears) but the spirit of God moved in the concert, and many people were touched. It wasn't my playing that moved the people (it moved them one step back God's spirit...

I remember PC saying this so clearly...until now it has been a benchmark in what I do in ministry:


I may be in the worst moments of my life,
be the worst guitarist of all,
be the worst person to have to cut your hair...
but God's grace makes the worst obsolete.

I thank God for his grace that carried me through...and I encourage you guys to give thanks to God for his never ending grace...
If not you even might not have a chance to read this...

God is awesome...

posted by Jude1am on 01/09/2009

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This year have been a wonderful, purposeful and also a bittersweet one. The team has grown older, wiser and fatter, that's why Neil and me are working out almost everyday now.

Earlier this year, one of our band mates, Mr. TJ Tan, who played the electric guitar left to Australia to further his studies.Just when he left God sent Jude Limus, a talented brother that can play various instruments. God is amazing.

This year we were busy with a lot of recordings, especially planning for next years album. This year we recorded two albums and that is Secret Place, which is our Chinese album and Adoration, which is the instrumental album.

I personally spent a lot of nights just recording and editing, fixing and more recording and editing. We recorded a lot, arranging guitar parts and thinking of ways to make our sound sweeter, bigger and more AWESOME. But one thing that I learnt throughout this tough, muddy, dirty, grueling process was I cannot make the sound in the recording bigger or sweeter or awesome if I depend on my own strength. Philippians 4:13 say I can do all things through Christ that strengthen me. I realized there was a time when I was exhausted and I felt like I cannot go on with the recordings, it was because I depended on my own strength and I did not rely on God.

It is the same with anyone out there; you need to draw strength from God daily. But how do you do that? By just coming to God daily before you start your day in prayer and reading His word. I have to admit there are times I struggle to read His word everyday (I know you guys struggle too) but I make it an effort to meet with Him almost everyday. I'm confident you'll start your day right and also He will provide you sufficient strength, anointing and blessing as well through out the day. God Bless.

posted by Daniel1am on 01/03/2009

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Looking back, 2008 was like a roller-coaster ride for me personally.
There were lotsa ups and downs almost everywhere all the time.

Compared to the year before, there weren't many tours in 2008 but itdoesn't mean we didn't do much this year. What I personally perceive is that God kept us for a season just to prepare us for a greater year ahead.

Through this time of confinement God truly have brought us as a band to really dive in deeper into the ocean floor, understanding a new level of what worship is all about. Finding new revelations about how great God really is was almost like having an incurable brain tumor! Even mind-boggling doesn't come close to describing the magnitude of this God we are serving!

Generally, especially in the 2nd half of the year, we enjoyed our time ministering, empowering, equipping & training a few worship teams from some local churches around the country. Besides, we also prioritized to strengthen our own worship teams at home.

Personally, it was and still is a very emotionally-challenging year for me as relationships with friends turned rocky and all that. Worst, I had to fight with time as God welcomed some (in the last 2 years) of my dearest home to be with Him forever a bit sooner than I
could imagine.

In my brokenness facing the reality of life I'm thankful that God is still so ever faithful in having so much interest in every area of my imperfect life. I cannot but keep thirsting for more of Him each day. It's His grace that fuels me to lift my heavy feet as I drag my own cross daily knowing that in my weaknesses I'm always made strong. More than often His comforting living Words has never failed to keep me sane and grounded each time unexpected storms came by, which in some desperate moments made me feel as though I'm clinging for my dear life on a sinking boat only to realize He's always there to grab me from sinking deeper into the troubled waters.

Overall, the journey this year wasn't easy at all but definitely rewarding. Surrendering everything to Him is still the best choice and the right thing todo. As I lay here waiting for a better tomorrow, all He's asking me to do is to be still and let God be God! So...I'll just stick to that in obedience. After all, He's the One who's in control over this broken


posted by Cuz1am on 01/01/2009

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Since joining 1a.m. on the 17th Feb 08 ( YES EXACT DATE.. )

My journey has been a most exciting one though its only a short amount of time. I remember being exposed to the different fields of work, like managing an entire academy, to overseeing the whole musical department as music director in training, things I'm not good at, but which 1a.m. had the confidence (or audacity) to entrust me with. But it is by God's grace the academy and music team is still surviving! (insert laughter here)

But really, journeying together with 1a.m. has really broaden my view towards God, from God only being my comfort and provider, to God being BIGGER THAN ALL MY PROBLEMS, and seeing him in a bigger worth. Being my 1st time away from home, often times I go to God for a "home security", which is good cos I i believe he wants us to go to him as often as we are able to.

But as God slowly reveals to me himself more and more, I felt God saying "MY PRESENCE IS BETTER THAN ANY HOME ON EARTH". So kinda like God became bigger than any castle mansion made. God has been so gracious even before I joined 1a.m. and I realized that often times I only acknowledge Him whenever He provides, intervenes in my problems, or when he delivers me from my grief.

Being with 1a.m. has open my eyes in worshipping Him, and honoring him EVEN WHEN HE SEEMS TO BE QUIET, or when things doesn't go MY WAY. God is always in control of everything regardless of different situations that we face. My heart has always been music, playing music, and anything to do with music, and when God gets involved in the music it just makes it even better. I've always wanted to play better, improve in my skills, learn everything possible, JUST so that I can equip myself. But...slowly God change me, as I journey with 1a.m. I now realized doing all the work, practicing 100 hours a day, trying to play faster than that speeding bullet, became secondary as MY HEART WAS MORE IMPORTANT ABOVE ANYTHING ELSE.


This year has been awesome, 1 year flew by without me noticing the red light.

Throughout the year I met many a challenge, most of them made me feel extremely inadequate.
I specially remember one of them where my playing styles completely differ from the current band members.. ( I grew up listening to classical, jazz and Prog Metal and music like Japanese pop...yes, worlds apart... ) Everyone was either...rock...or...not-classical-not-jazz-not-metal kinda thing... So a lot of times it was extremely hard for me to gel with them, to play skillfully up to an expectation, ( everyone thought highly of my musicality's apparently ) and being a musician it's hard to change instantly and suck in your pride. But I thank GOD for THE AWESOME journey He hooked me up in '08, for being such an AWESOME GOD, for BEING SO REAL, and walking me me thru all the moments where I felt I'm inadequate, cos that's where i feel him the most. Of course God is slowly changing me as well musically, at least now know jazz is not the band's thing :) ....

I look forward for '09 to come, cos I know God has in store for me MORE AWESOME THINGS that He wants me to experience.

It's been good being a guitarist for God, I regret nothing...

posted by Jude1am on 12/22/2008

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The story behind the song: Malaysia Shouts Your Praise

In my country, there are many citizens giving up their citizenship to go to "greener" pastures. Almost every person I met who have migrated only spoke about how beautiful, how happy and relieved they were since they left Malaysia. All I hear from them are their negative comments of their own country; there is never anything good and that is why they left. Worst of all they are neither serving in any of the churches there or some are not even going to churches since they left their own country.

I often ask these questions, "Are we not responsible for our own nation? God can never make a mistake by bringing you to whatever nation you were born in. If everyone leaves, for example, my country Malaysia especially the Chinese and Indians, who is then going to reach this nation for Jesus?"

Many believers have forgotten that God has a purpose why he birthed us in that country. We often complain about what is not good about our country but we forgot the great things He has done in our country. We must believe that God is sovereign and HE can transform our nation.

We need to stir our hearts to love and begin to pray for our nation that God will bring revival to our streets, towns, cities, state and our country.

Let us stand together united in ONE ACCORD and declare "Every Nation Shouts God's Praise."

I pray that the song will bless and inspire you to pray for your own nation.

God bless

posted by Kelvin Lim on 06/25/2008

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Loving God Part 2

When growing up, let's say between 4yrs to 10yrs old, have you ever felt that you will be taken care off for the rest of your life by your parents.

- no need to buy food, clothes
- Shelter/Protection, Money, ETC...

Not that my parents never spoke about me living independently, its just that I was so loved that I never thought about it.

But as we grow older, REALITY checks-in

- Parents don't live forever. There only on earth for a while.
- Parents stop providing at 18 (Well does not technically apply for all but it was for me)

But you know what?

Praise God that we have a God Yesterday, Today and Forever

Heb 13:8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
Continuing from what God spoke to me about loving HIM (Loving God), I felt God challenged me in 3 things base on the verse:-
1) Think of the God of Yesterdays but DON'T love Him like Yesterday
I say this because I believe God deserves the best everyday in terms of our love, our devotion, etc

• Let's not love God with leftovers of yesterdays love. Remember Him and love Him more.

Ps 25:6 Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love,
for they are from of old

2) Think of who God is Today and love Him more.
• How do we do this? By doing things better all for the glory of His name.

For example: - If you think you worked better than yesterday with what you did, then challenge yourself to do better today. Even if you go beyond your daily routine, then do it all for Him, for His glory.

Ps 59:16 But I will sing of your strength,
in the morning I will sing of your love;
for you are my fortress,
my refuge in times of trouble.

3) Think of what God does Tomorrow (Forever). So be Excited

Ps 100:5 For the LORD is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations.

• Everyday is an opportunity to meet God. So be excited on what is God going to do and speak in your life
I am challenged, what about you?

posted by Neil1am on 05/22/2008

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Road to Next Level: - Simplicity. Fallen Branch Thought

Have you ever seen or heard of a branch that came off a tree, rooted itself on the ground and became fruitful? If you had, please email me at, HeHeHe

Anyway, I was reminded of the story in the bible when Jesus spoke about "The Vine and the Branches" on John 15.
You see, we dream about great things taking place, talk about "how to accomplish a dream?" or "See a vision come to pass" but you tell me, do you think that we will be able to see what we dream, what we envision to come to pass by not doing what is simple and that is to be connected to the Father?
What do I mean by connected? Does it mean...
- Read the bible 1 week ago and do Gods call?
- Hear the word of God once a month at church, read the bible whenever I feel and do Gods call?
- Pray today and pray only when reminded?

This is what Jesus said,
John 15:5-8
5 "I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6 If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. 8 This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples."

Well I don't read the bible almost everyday but I make an effort to read it everyday. Remaining in Him does not necessarily mean read the bible everyday but I guess it simply means this –

Do we start the day thinking about God in whatever our agenda maybe?

In what ever we do, are we connected with Him whether reading, prayer, humility, submission, etc
Our Next Level is around the corner and to do so is to do the simple things first which is "BE CONNECTED"

This may sound easy but its not. Sometimes the simple things are the hardest to do but I believe once you get a hang of it, it would be smooth sailing.

posted by Neil1am on 05/10/2008

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God painted a picture in my head some time ago where I see a bottle, a bottle that is no obvious defect or abnormalities and the bottle that I saw was filled with fresh water. At first glance, you won't find anything wrong with it then until the bottle was turned upside down. Then I start to see a drip, a small drip and it started to become bigger drips.

When I saw that picture, it's like God is reminding me the state of our spiritual life as a band and as a person. Sometimes we think our bottle is full , thinking that our spiritual life is strong, not realizing that there's a leakage at the bottom of the bottle that is slowly leaking out, sometimes we are unaware and sometimes we are just plain ignorant of the fact that our bottle is leaking.

This is what happened when we do not constantly check our lives, thinking everything is alright without realizing that our spiritual level is low or sometimes even empty and yet we are still ignorant of what is happening. Sometimes our leakage is too small that even we won't realize it; sometimes we need someone else to tell us that is leaking because sometimes at first glance, we think that everything is alright.

God showed me this picture to remind us that we have to constantly check ourselves, making sure we have no leakage in our spiritual lives and we need to take actions to patch it up if we have been shown or convicted of the leakage that has been happening.

posted by Cuz1am on 05/07/2008

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Loving God

Have you ever been in a relationship where you have been asked one of the toughest questions like "Honey, why do you love me?" Some of us find it hard to reply back. Some of us sweat blood just by thinking really hard. Some of us simply say "Because I love you" which in some cases is just too general for the recipient.

What about proving your love to the person? How do you prove your love? I remember one of my friends answered "by doing the 5 love languages". I was like, "ok... which one?" and he said nothing after that and we just laughed.

I'm sure some of us went through the things I just mentioned. I know I did

What about when it comes to God? How do you respond to "why do you love God?" To be honest, my response to that would be "because of what He's done on the cross, because He loved us first". There are many ways to answer this question. A lot of us having a similar respond.

But how do we prove our love to God? Well its not that we don't know but I guess for me when I picked up my bible and read John 14:15

"If you love me, you will obey what I command"

It was a reminder for me.

How many of us do remember showing our love to God? More than words, does our action, even the decisions that we make reflect our love for God or is it just mere words hitting in the air?

One morning (it's was a holiday) I woke up with a burden to follow up on those people I know. Normally I'd bum around my house doing nothing but that day was different. I decided to make a couple of calls, text people to see how everyone's doing.
One of the plans I made was to go to a campus and meet up with a guy to help jump start his journey with God. (You have to understand that this guy just recently received Christ.)

So there I was, called 2 of my friends to join me fellowship but one couldn't make it because his lunch break was an hour earlier then the time set-up and the other got stuck at home with his family to eat lunch.

All of a sudden an open door to "back-out" or "pull-out" of the meeting with the guy in the campus was opened causing me to shrink back and just stay at home but before I could shrink any further I was reminded about John 14:15.

I got myself together took my bible materials called for a cab and went to the campus and the rest of the story is all for God's Glory!

To love God is to do what God has called you to do. Now if you've forgotten what God has called you to do or have been ignoring it, wake up!

God loves us no matter what and it's only right to love Him back ;)

posted by Neil1am on 04/15/2008

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I was serving in my church back in K.K, Sabah ( the best place to live! ) and I though that I served without much complaint, I thought that I gave God my all, and that I gave him all that I have. But as the years went by, I felt that it was getting a bit boring for me, I felt really complacent, and in the end I felt that it became a routine for me. I wasn't improving musically and definitely not improving spiritually.

Then one day I came across a verse from John 4:23, which went like:

"And the time will come when TRUE WORSHIPERS will come and worship in SPIRIT and in TRUTH, for these are the kind of worshipers that the Father seeks"

It hit me then, coz' I did not feel that way, I felt that I wasn't a true worshiper, and I wanted to understand more of being a true worshiper, I wanted to know what does it mean to worship in spirit and in truth. I wanted to change myself. Thus the search began.

I heard of 1a.m and their ministries years ago when they 1st came to K.K back in the year 2001, coz' they were doing some workshops and stuff like that. They came again at 2007, and one thing that caught me was their PASSION. I saw a passion in them that reflected in their worship, in their lifestyle, in their actions but I couldn't really piece out what it was. Then during a Sunday service 1a.m led a worship session, and right after that I felt something different in me. I felt changed! I felt that I wanted MORE of God. Then I understood the vision that 1a.m has: WORSHIP BRINGS CHANGE. So I thought, I wanted THAT, and I wanted to be with a group of people whose heart is to worship, and inspire worship as well.

So I fasted and prayed to God, asking Him for his plans and His will to be done in me, coz' I really wanted to change. So one day one of the 1a.m members came up to me and asked me if I would consider joining 1a.m. I KNEW that God answered my prayers! Eventually I said yes, and now I'm serving together with 1a.m, and it's been a blast.

I know in my heart that I can live a lifestyle of the vision that worship really does bring change together with 1a.m, and really to understand how to become a true worshiper is really my worship to God changes me inside out, and I'm still changing today.

Jude joined 1a.m on Feb 17, 2008.

posted by Jude1am on 03/28/2008

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Are you Fresh? Ok, lets rephrase that into "do we keep ourselves fresh" or "what keeps us fresh?" or " what refreshes us?"

This blog was meant to be out a fews months back during one of our church worship team practice. So this is what happened.

We had our band practice with the 3rd team where every week we practice on how to "move prophetically" in the spirit during songs. We aren't there yet but have seen and heard a lot of improvements over the months of just "moving in faith" in this area.

Well I can't really explain much of how and what we do during practice but I can tell you testimonies where people (musicians and singers) during our practice are just "refreshed" after a long day of work through worship.
It was a confirmation for what God has placed in my heart after hearing every ones heart through a prophetic song or a word (testimony)

It was when we were singing "Majesty" by Delirious? that I began to sing words such as "Humbled by your grace so free, humbled by your love so free, humbled by your power, awesomeness... etc..." These are words that we normally hear or read of everyday, every week through times when you have your devotion on your own or fellowship with your friends, and you know what? Though we've heard them over and over again, it never fails to amaze us, strengthen us, encourage us, rebuke us, build us, refresh us.

We can read the New Testament from Matthew to Revelation and read the whole thing again from cover to cover and still get something new out of it. Why? Coz His words are alive, It never fails to amaze us!

I was reminded of a story in the book of John which spoke about Nathanael's encounter with Jesus :-
48"How do you know me?" Nathanael asked.
Jesus answered, "I saw you while you were still under the fig tree before Philip called you."
49Then Nathanael declared, "Rabbi, you are the Son of God; you are the King of Israel."
50Jesus said, "You believe because I told you I saw you under the fig tree. You shall see greater things than that."

Nathanael was "blown away" during his encounter with Jesus.

What is it that God amazes you? What "Blows" your mind?What is it that God has "told" you today through His word, His Love? There maybe a lot of things that He may have told you that had left you standing amazed but let me tell you this... "You've not seen anything yet"

Just like Jesus Said "You shall see greater things than that".

For now.... I encourage you to hear from God and allow yourselves to be amazed by Him.

Happy New Year!

posted by Neil1am on 01/03/2008

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This is a testimony for "the Greatest Gift" song
The Greatest Gift Testimony

First of all, Merry Christmas to everyone. I assume everyone is having an awesome time together with Friends, Family, Spiritual Family etc...

Well I'm alright. Christmas day can be pretty pressuring especially when it comes to buying gifts. I couldn't breathe when I was buying gifts. I had a list with my friends of the people who had blessed us this year and man, every time we would shop for someone, a "name" would pop up and the list kept growing and growing and our cash kept decreasing and decreasing. Wahahahha!!!!! Guess what, I just realized I still missed some people out.

At the end of the day, it's the thought that counts. If I spent, I spent to bless. Which is a good thing cause I was and still am pretty much a receiver than a giver.

Anyway, what did you get for Christmas? If you look back and think of the gifts you've received all the years of your life during Christmas, what would be the best gift?

I haven't received the best yet but the Greatest Gift I have.

I wrote a song a few months back called "the Greatest Gift". The song talks about Jesus being the Greatest Gift. If you ask me what was my Greatest Gift, it would be Jesus. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I sound religious and all but seriously He is.

Oh yea, though our production was called "the Gift", the song was never written for the event but we used it anyway . Kelvin added the second verse of the song and now sounds complete.

You see I was going through a time where I felt I was useless. Not good enough to serve in the ministry God called me in. Surprised? Well I guess its just one of those days the enemy tries to lure you down. You have to understand that when I was a teenager, there was a time I asked myself that "What am I gonna do when I become an adult in the working world (This was before I knew Christ). I was never good enough in the things that I do or studied. What I've started, I've never ended. There was one thing though that stayed and had seen improvements and that's the area of music. I've noticed that through out the boy-band era of my life, my ability to write songs, sing and play the guitar has improved. Accepting Jesus in the next few years changed my life and made me want to serve Him with the talents and gifting He gave. If you noticed in some of my mails that I've written, I mentioned "I know nothing but to serve". That is an honest statement because the truth is I really don't know anything else but to serve Him with what I got which is music.

That night when I went back home from one of the worst worship session I led, I came before God asking "am I ever good enough? Do I have anything that's good and am good at?" I was in my bed thinking and in silence I heard God speak that "I have Jesus and the music given to me is what He is gonna use through me". I wrote the song that day and in a week the song " the Greatest Gift" was written. Quiet long to finish a song but I wanted to make sure that this song spoke strong.

You must be wondering why I received the Greatest Gift and not yet the Best Gift. What is the difference? You see, I remember PC(Pastor Cathryn) mentioned that the best gift she received are those that she can't get but given to her and so the same for me. I'm still waiting and that gift is salvation for my family.

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posted by Neil1am on 12/28/2007

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Six days spent within a community of hundreds of teens from various parts of the globe was truly a great experience...and it was truly a privilege and great honor to be used by God to inspire worship to this group of people.
It was a picturesque moment witnessing these kids letting go off and denying themselves in worship. In the eyes of any human being it was like the usual hysterical moment at any other concerts, but in His eyes it was the kind of a heart-melting show that He is well pleased with.

Every evening our showmanship was jeopardized as we ushered the young crowd to experience genuine worship. It was not just mere music that connects people we were playing; it was a melodic symphony that unites us with the Creator.

In between songs as several challenges were made, seas of teens were seen making commitments to pick up their own cross and carry the call to live a purposefully contagious life especially among their immediate sphere of friends and families. Some were also convicted to get out of their comfort zones to exist as sold out ambassadors for God...leaving behind their old self and starting enthusiastically afresh.

Above all, many of these young lives were liberated and set free during the expressive and yet intimate moment spent with God in worship. It was never about us...not even them...but truly about Him and Him only. For most, the entire experience was totally something fresh. For's one of the only things we knew what to do best.

posted by Cuz1am on 12/21/2007

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Kuching Trip

It was a journey home for me, back to a familiar comfort zone, the land I left not too long ago before God challenged me to walk on waters. This time around I didn't head home for what would normally be a leisure trip for me; it was more of an assignment...the kind that caused us all to settle for nothing less than being totally Sold Out to His call. Secularly, it felt like a Home Coming Concert for my dreams...

The few days spent in the land we call the Cat City has evidently helped me, or us all as a band, unearth some of the needs the locals are desperately seeking help in. For most, they know very well it is about time for them to escalate their worship to greater heights but there is just no clear direction on how to get there. Some are just hampered by the absence of a visionary in their midst. The whole picture is like wanting to drive a car forward but can't keep your eyes off the rear view mirror.

From our own workshops I personally discovered the importance of being able to gel with people of different generations especially when the only language you and the other person could converse in is music. For the young punks, they'd grumble about the elders for not being able to fulfill their demanding musical needs. On the other hand, the seniors can always be heard nagging about how intricate the music of today's shocking generation has evolved. More than often, this is one of the main and obvious reasons we seldom see a mixture of age groups being put together to serve in the same band. Imagine the blend of flattering sounds produced should the best of these two worlds are being put together!!!

Another significant moment worth freezing from this trip is when I took the band for a simple dinner with my the historic spot where I was ejected from my mum's womb. Though the food was traditionally exceptional (and it was fun witnessing Neil confessed to enjoying something his taste bud has been rejecting) but it was truly the chance for the band members to speak into some of my relatives' lives that caught my attention.

On one end, Neil was seen paying undivided attention to every word my uncle spat out while Kelvin was caught mingling and exchanging thoughts with my dad. On the other end I saw PC was engaging in a deep conversation with my other uncle who once was a faithful servant in the house of God until the storm in his life struck causing him to not wanting to be associated with church at all. I have no clue what PC said or how God used her that evening but two weeks after that short talk with her, that very same uncle of mine finally found his way back to the church he left more than 10 years ago! I was just so amazed at how God could timely use a deliberate person to defrost a frozen heart!

Overall...convinced with our growing strength and passion, in the course of this trip I've seen God helped us unlock doors which were right in front of us (or was it only me?!) but never saw. No details can be confirmed yet but definitely something hot is in the pipeline for the very near future. Somehow we are all so inspired to do greater things as were sinking into 2008!!! Slowly but surely are we gonna be stepping really hard on our spiritual accelerator pedal as we are gearing to yet another exciting new year. That I can be very sure of...

posted by Cuz1am on 12/01/2007

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Do what we do best

Bangkok Jazz experience was just cool. It was a good night for the band as it helped us increase our confidence in the things that we do for God. It was also totally awesome. Why? Coz God was present.

After a night of worship concert on Saturday and an opening service of our sister church (ECF Damansara), I can tell you that the band was already tired. Daniel the most since he had to help out with the videos for the opening service and play for Sunday service in the morning.

When we got there, I could hear music from outside, songs being played by other bands. There were about 18 bands all together I believe, and 1a.m. were the second to the last band to perform. The bands present were not bad. Some had skills, some really surprised us with their skills like there was this really young band and man they ROCK! I'm in my early 20's and I've got areas to improve in music but they look like they're just 15 so imagine with me on how they would be when they reach my age?

Well, as our turn to play drew near, I was in a position that I really needed God. Personally, I was nervous, how would the people react? Will they boo us off stage? Joke about us? You have to understand that we are playing our original songs from our next album and man the songs clearly speaks of our creator, our savior, our God right on the dot. This ain't switchfoot.

I went back in to listen to the other bands for a while, did my normal stuff to observe how the sound was and just when I was doing that, Doris, one of our church members who came along to support the band came to me and praise the team that we'll do great but the thing that caught my attention was when she said that " Do what you guys do best".
When she said that, I asked myself the same question "What do we really do best? And in a few seconds the answer to that was "Worship". With that, I found comfort. We may not have the best musicians or vocalist in the world but it is worship that we do best. A responsibility that we as a worship ministry do is bring down God's presence and man we wanted Gods presence to be there. Guess what? The presence of God was there in fact HE was there watching His kids play. Front row, front seat.

Just before our turn came to play, I gathered the team and reminded them about what we do best. I reminded them to worship God with the talents God had given us and not be distracted by how good other bands were. Our goal was to bring down the presence of God in Bangkok Jazz and there he was.

God was so good were just before our turn came, the band before us were singing praises to the Lord. We were shock coz we thought we were the only Christian band there. Hearing them sing that, I could tell that set the tone for us 1a.m. Personally my spirit man worship and praised God when that song was playing and was ready to do what I'm called to do at that moment, at that time and place. A moment prepared by our God for us as a team.

So here we were. On stage, sound check done and ready to worship in front of different people, cultures and religion. We struck the first chord of the first song (Pour Out) and when the music came out of our instruments, I felt that Spirit of God just explode in that room. (It was like a grenade that exploded).The respond was quiet receiving that they enjoyed it. We ended with our second song and the rest is in the history books of heaven. We came out with a very positive respond that after our "so called GIG" people approached us and said a lot of overwhelming comments. Glory to God! The team gathered together with the people who came to support us outside Bangkok Jazz and prayed to God giving Him the Glory.
I am excited for what the future brings for this ministry, step by step God has opened doors and I tell you, it's always challenging than the previous which only makes us stronger and better ministers of God.

We did the show to represent the God that loves us by doing what we do best which is "Worship". People may have not understood what we did but we planted a seed. And in faith, just like a seed, God would cause it to grow and at the end of the day God's people will reap a harvest.


posted by Neil1am on 11/23/2007

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Hey guys,

Thought I'd post up some of our blogs in indieheaven. Hope you guys will be blessed.

Last week by the way was a blast. Will blog about it this week.


New Zealand Blog

Arriving in Christchurch was an evidently refreshing outlook, even from the moments of leaving the airport; fresh weather, beautiful scenery, and great people; all the prerequisites for a great trip. Rallying the people in a laidback country took slightly a little more effort than we were normally used to; going campuses ourselves to promote our own concert, how often does that happen?

Nevertheless it was an awesome experience chatting to the locals, some foreign students, and definitely some cool campus ministers. Our first workshop went as usual, the ideas came through. It is odd to note, however, that the kiwis down south don't usually worship with contemporary music, but with R n' b.

The folks at Christchurch were really good in their organization and punctuality. Go to bed early, wake up early; a way of life. Our first worship concert took stage; and by God's grace and miracle we actually had the place packed with people. It was definitely encouraging to see students from the campuses we were at usher in excitedly. However, of all the things to note about what occurred, it was the obvious liberation of the people, dancing, laughing, shouts of praise; apparently something that's a little harder to come by in this part of the country. It was great.

We spent the next few days in New Zealand on a road trip further south. We visited what must have been the most beautiful views, Lake Tekapo, Queenstown, and even Puzzle World!

Just a few hundered miles up though, Auckland stands to be an extremely different change of pace; a hustling city with far fewer trees and scenic locations :). That's not necessarily bad, the 'Aucklanders' are the warmest mix of people; pacific islanders, kiwis, Asians; Auckland seems to have every nation of the world in their church. The most notable hosts were of course though, the homes of whom which we stayed; Alfred, Kelly, Pastor John and Elaine.

We kicked off our Auckland tour with a street concert right in the middle of the city square. Other than the fact we had never played on the streets, and that we had never done an acoustic set before, and that we had no real idea what we were dong, it was something we were totally used to. God came through, we aren't the most skilled, nor the best entertainers, but the city street was definitely awed in worship that night.

The next day followed up with a workshop and our second concert. Of all our expectations, this concert totally rocked! The tangibility of God heightened, lengthened, lifted us powerfully; there aren't really words to describe it when you feel Him all around you and within you. People were awestruck. People got saved, people were on their knees, people were crying. Of the things to remember that night, were the famous words by Pastor John "I now have something extra to add to my favorite things about Malaysia; Nasi Lemak, Mee Goreng, and 1a.m.! Malaysians should be proud.

We finished off our tour with praise and worship at North shore the next morning. Once again the presence of God tore through the roof. It has to be God when leaders down in the congregation start comparing us with Hillsongs :)

New Zealand received new zeal (no pun intended), a 'Sold Out' message, and a liberation only God can give. We ministered and were greatly ministered to. It is truly nothing short of a miracle to be able to experience God wherever you go in this world, especially in a place so different and so far from home. Of all the things we gave, we can only say that we were grateful we received even more. Beyond all expectations, we did take something home, a contract with the biggest music distributor in New Zealand, world famous Parachute Music. Our albums began distribution nation-wide August 2007. A hallmark in 1a.m.
Dubai Blog

With finally a tedious flight and formalities out of the way, we happily trudged out of the airport onto official Dubai soil. Pastor Aljay met us excitedly, a great guy, passionate speaker, and awesome host. Of course, as humble 'missionaries' we never expected for Aljay to put us in a huge mansion for our weeks stay. Then again, nearly all homes in Dubai are huge mansions.

It wasn't long before we had work on our hands. Our first workshop in Sharjah was fruitful, as a band still learning to reach a certain standard of public speech, our delivery of ideas met well, well absorbed. People were excited; our concert the next day was chocked full. Crowds met excitedly in praise and worship, you know the presence of God is strong when you find out the next day 4 people gave their lives to Christ without an alter call, even though we didn't play that well.

The rest of our trip consisted of more workshops, praise and worships sessions, getting to know the 'Dubai-ans', which are a socialite bunch of photo-loving, warm, and fun people; even though a little extreme at times.

Of course we had our grand finale concert in Abu Dhabi, once again chocked full with people. Congregation was wild, people's hearts open to worship; it was definitely a blast. More than just playing well, the presence of God was definitely strongly tangible in the theatre; so tangible in fact the band burst out into solo performances - something we've never rehearsed or done before.

We've accomplished what we've come to do; bring aspects of worship to bring their team to the next level, preach the gospel, helped others encounter God. One of the prophetic words Pastor Mar received was God opening the ozone layer and pouring His presence down upon U.A.E. He also prophesied over 1a.m. as a fertile ministry, and will bear many fruits to come. People were SOLD OUT!

posted by 1a.m. on 11/20/2007